Work, work, work.

i keep having dreams about work. it's crazy. i mean, i recognize that getting all the arts residencies at sf schools up and running this fall is frustrating - it requires a lot of back and forth between our office and artists, as well as our office and school officials (teachers and adminstrators). imagine a world where no one is easily accessible via email or phone because they're teaching all day.

i just had no idea that it would start invading my sleep. two nights ago, i dreamed that a residency we've been having trouble establishing (due to classroom scheduling issues) miraculously worked out fine (happy dream. until i woke up and realized that everything was still a mess). last night i dreamed that a friend of mine from high school had started working with elderly people doing arts residencies and my organization (which was actually my old office at harvard, with the old executive director) co-opted her program and took over the residencies without my knowledge. (anxious/conflicted dream. until i woke up and realized that it was a dream).

i think the bottom line is that i feel like i have too little control at work - everything depends on someone else's decision, or someone else's response. That's just the nature of the work. but it's starting to get to me.