premenstrual blues.

well, it's that time of the month again. when i question everything i'm doing and where i'm living and with whom i choose to spend my time, and decide that it's all wrong, wrong, wrong, and that i should be on another path.

and then i calm down and remind myself that it's all one path, there isn't a right or wrong, and whatever i'm going through now is only another step leading me toward what's next. whatever that might be.

but sometimes i just want a house, a dog, and to be near the friends and family i love.

and yet i've made loads of choices that have led me in just the opposite direction. literally. the other day i decided that i should always be a little unsettled; a little off balance, because it keeps me growing and trying new things.

but it's so damn hard.

what is there left to say, except "!?"